I want to write “It was the first time that I truly followed my intuition” although of course that is not true.
But I do think it was the first time that I consciously decided to just follow a pull without questioning ‘why’ too much, or doing lots of research, or endlessly talking myself into and out of the decision.
I think it was following a breadcrumb dropped by @candicebrathwaite that led me to andcrystals and to order a crystal reading.
Reviewing Katie-Jane’s document again today, it piques my curiosity to wonder how – or if – a reading today would differ.
One of the lines she wrote was this: “[in a past life] you had a beautiful connection to horses, you visited them and received healing from them. A white horse strongly comes up as one of your animal guides protecting your heart. The white horse symbolises freedom, strength and courage.”
The whole reading was very moving. I immediately started to use blue lace agate on my throat when I felt I was choking (frequently) and a few days after I received the reading I also found this little white horse figurine in a thrift shop in Canterbury, for sale for just a few pounds.
He has stood on my bedside table ever since. And, ever since, when I am desperate for a sign from the universe, a white horse appears.
Just a few weeks ago, as I drove on a tedious errand, my ego was chattering away to me that ‘a white horse is not a good sign, it’s too rare to see a white horse, I need something commoner, a butterfly or a feather or something.’
And as I crested the hill a field appeared on my right with not one, not two, but at least five maybe seven white horses peacefully grazing in the sun.
Or the dog walk last week, after a particularly wobbly morning, where I actively strode out searching for signs – and this beauty appeared to lead me into the woods.